Originally written on December 10, 2023

Author's Note:  I was under what I call as an "intense spiritual warfare" and I was journaling all the time as I knew, or rather, prayed, that this heightened part would balance and my life would return to somewhat of a normal pattern.  When I wrote this, it was literally after another sleepless night of me being awoken by what seemed like a 6 or so spirits, both men and women - I don't know why some names were more present than others and for a sense of privacy, I will not publicly state those names as they belong to people, I personally know or know of. 

I was able to discern all their thoughts and it was such a chaotic time - insinuations, my past being thrown out against me, one spirit wants to constantly criticize me while another spirit was pretending to be my mother, or a part of my mother, because this spirit "behaved" just like my mother:  cleaning the house, wanting to wash and put away dishes, cook and take care of me.  This spirit, my "mother" spirit - there are two of them.  One is an actual person who has a spirit that is now inside of my home and the other which has always been a spirit from a spirit world that has not yet evolved as our planet has into human beings.  

Yes, it's bizarre, and yet somewhat familiar - as if this all happened in past lives from past places.  So, two mother spirits - both fighting to claim me as their daughter and yet, agreeing to both me my mom - yet me gravitating towards the Spirit Mother who is so loving, caring and empathetic.  

Again, this is part of the spiritual awakening - at the height of the spiritual warfare, Satan trying to confuse and rattle me; and me trying to figure everything out while staying close to God as possible, while trying to discern exactly who God is in all of this.  A lot of my writings, like this one for example, were written when I was simply trying to produce memories to look back on.

"Facts.  I love all of you. I refuse to live a negative life regardless.  I see the potential and possibilities of viewing life positively as possible.

Let's move forward and stay focused on us all and how we can all benefit mankind.

I've got plenty of love to give and would love to start living my life and get out of this monotonous life that I now have; albeit it's a beautiful and organized one, but I want to be with you all (I had discerned that these spirits were more like a family that I had, a family that didn't live in this world, but lived in a spirit world).

So, if you can accept that and want that, then let's do this and strive to live harmoniously."

9am today - another "no show" from a spirit that I discerned would be meeting me at my house.  This happened on and off for nearly 6 months where I discerned that I would be meeting someone in person, not just a spirit.  Keep in mind, discernment of thoughts is not the same as "hearing voices."  When we die and go to heaven, I strongly believe we communicate via discernment of thoughts; telepathically. I was able to do this, back and forth, with numerous spirits and 2 kept insinuating in thought that they were, if not one of them, was going to actually show up at my house and provide an explanation to all of what I was experiencing.  Except, they never showed up in person.......they just brought more spirits, so it seemed.  Note:  we live in a spiritual world and my experience more than confirmed this and as a highly evolved being, I cannot see into the spirit world.

"I think my phone is still cloned and this would explain why my Pandora music app skips songs, repeats songs and stops music altogether. 

I have a spirit in my house and life that I can discern/communicate with exceptionally well. He has been the most supportive, helpful, kind and loving spirit I've ever known and the love he has for me is incredible.  This spirit, which I refer to as God's Spirit is constant.  He loves me more than anyone because I am the most supportive person in this universe because of my love for Him.  He has always loved me when I'm not there for him and he's always wanted me to have Him in my life. He is my favorite spirit in the entire universe, and I want him in my life forever.

Note:  God's Spirit and the Holy Spirit are now both anchored to God; the Holy Spirit IS God's Spirit.

For me, Father God IS God.  God's Spirit IS God. The Holy Spirit IS God. There is ONE Almighty and Powerful God who rules over creation and everything.  

I discerned in my Spiritual Awakening that I created myself, then a companion Spirit (another God), then a Mother & Father Spirit (all God's).  I've had a hard time admitting this due to how I was raised within the church, but my Spiritual Awakening was very much focused on the fact that I created myself and then created a male God.  That male God went onto create other God's and Angels.  Being the Creator God, a Spirit no less (we are all spirits with the exception of today's times for a specific reason), I don't need help in planet creation or repairing the planet in any regard.  I can create storms and stop storms; and I've been "creating" life, things, people and places all this life not realizing who I am.  

This all being said, I still placed the emphasis and respect on a male God, my Husband, who I am eager to return Home too.  

There is much about the "God world" that is proprietary and confidential.  Man simply isn't supposed to know all the details, nor will ever know all the details.  

I learn all of this in my Spiritual Awakening, and while I am becoming (re)acquainted with this knowledge, it all seems very, very familiar.  As if God, my husband, protected me from this so we could get to this very important point in this world.  

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